confusion on mission.

it's 11.05 i'm bringing my jacket to school tomorrow to just be retarded and sorts. somehow i wish i was a "normal" girl with "normal" thoughts i fantasize about smoking (!!!!!!) and other wrong things not sex thank you but other unhealthy things, like being modelesque with all that cocaine and stuff. i can't imagine what i'll be like i go to cocaine and tobacco and things like that.

i think i just need sleep.